I could swoop back in and tell you that life has been so busy I just haven't had the time to catch up on my 31 Days posts the past 10 or so days, but that would only be a half-truth. The rest of the truth is that this series took a turn that hit me hard. I knew it would. I wanted it to. But when it happen, although expected, it still rocked me to my core. Being intentional sounds easy enough in theory, but it has really made me dig deep and get to the core of why I do (or don't do) the things I do. Acknowledging those things isn't always an easy pill to swallow.
Sometimes it means I write more.
Sometimes it means I just sit with it and process. And that's what I've been doing a lot of the past weeks. Processing.
And then I got real with myself and faced the uncomfortable truth that I was just using it as an excuse. The real problem wasn't that I needed to process; it was that I was scared.
Scared of what was being revealed about myself.
Scared of what I was going to find out about myself if I continued.
Scared of being vulnerable.
It was during one of my most vulnerable, broken moments that I was lifted up by a woman I've come to know as a very dear friend. She didn't realize how broken I was, but she emailed me, told me her story, and said to me three words that rocked my word: "I see you."
I spent the next several days reading, digesting, re-reading that email before I was able to respond. I won't go into the details of our emails, but I will say that for the first time I felt like I was being called out. She saw me - the real me - and has been such an amazing source of encouragement, support, and kindness.
She was intentional about reaching out to me to let me know that I wasn't alone. She was intentional with her words and her actions and her kindness. And, more than she realizes, she has been a catalyst for change in my life.
And that inspires me to be more intentional about showing love and compassion, about lifting others up, even if it means being open and vulnerable myself to show them they are not alone.
Not every interaction is going to be on a life-changing level, but if I can make someone's day a little brighter, like so many women have mine the past few weeks, then I'm going to make sure I'm intentional about doing so.
With sincere compliments. With acts of kindness. With smiles. With notes to say "I'm thinking about you." With emails to encourage.
Sometimes all it takes is one person saying, "I see you. I love you. I'm here for you, and we WILL get through this."
This post is part of the 31 Days of Intention series. You can see other posts in this series here.